Tonight I laid down with Eloise for a few minutes to help her calm her body before bed.
I was exhausted and closed my eyes for a few minutes. I was still awake, but Eloise thought I had fallen asleep.
She gently placed her hand on me cheek and leaned in to give me a kiss and whispered “I yuh you, mom.”
She then carefully adjusted and began stroking my hair and quietly singing to me.
I know she won’t always be quite as obsessed with me as she is right now.
I know one day soon she will roll her eyes and reject my cuddles.
When I laid down with her tonight, I was annoyed.
Annoyed that she wouldn’t be still, annoyed that I wasn’t going to be able to get as much editing done as I wanted, and annoyed that her Ezra wouldn’t stop talking.
But in those moments, as she gently stroked my hair and sang one of her made up songs for me, none of the rest of it seemed to matter.
Today, she loves me but more than that, she needs me.
So no matter how tired I am, I’m going to continue to soak up these moments and do my best to never take them for granted.
I yuh you too my sweet girl; more than you will ever know.